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Though I have read Hazrat Ji's book "Dawa-e-Dil" several times, it is a book that has often been a balm on the wounds of the heart, relieved the fatigue of the soul, and been a silent guide on the journey of reform.
But yesterday, when I picked it up again, the feeling was different.
The book was in my hand, but my hands were trembling, the pages were in front of me, but my heart was shaking.
As soon as I opened the book, it felt as if the hidden chambers of my heart had opened.
Every page stood before me as a question, and my heart was averting its gaze from those questions.
But as soon as my eyes fell upon the words of Hazrat Maulana Salahuddin Saifi Naqshbandi Madazillahu on the first page, my heart suddenly became still.
May Allah bless Hazrat Ji's life.
May Allah keep him safe and blessed.
I don't know why, but a kind of wildness took over my heart.
My eyes stopped, my breath became heavy, and my heart refused to accept this thought.
That Hazrat Ji is no longer among us.
I stopped at those pages for hours, I didn't have the courage to move forward, nor did I want to close the book.
Time seemed to have stopped, and I was imprisoned in that moment.
It felt like "Dawa-e-Dil" had become not a cure, but a test that day.
A test of the heart's patience, love, and attachment.
Every line was a testament to Hazrat Ji's kindness, every word was giving a sense of his presence.
My heart kept thinking, how can those beings who keep hearts alive depart?
How can that being who becomes a lamp of guidance and illuminates the paths be extinguished?
That day, this book was not just reading, but became a memory, a trust, and a silent conversation.
Between me and my heart,
I felt that some relationships are connected not by words, but by souls, and some beings, whether they are in the world or not, are never separated from hearts.
Indeed, some books are not just for reading, they hold the heart, moisten the eyes, and silence a person for a long time.
"Dawa-e-Dil" is also such a book that holds the heart"
and also makes it aware of its weaknesses.
And perhaps that is its greatest effect.
O Allah!
Grant complete forgiveness to our Hazrat Ji Rahmatullah Alaih
Fill his grave with light
And grant him the company of prophets, the truthful, the martyrs, and the righteous in Jannat al-Firdous.
O Lord!
The hearts that he gave life to
And the paths that he illuminated
Write down the reward of all of them in his book of deeds.
O Allah!
Grant us the strength to bear the grief of his separation
And grant us a good end on faith while following in his footsteps.
Ameen Ya Rabb Al-Alameen 🤲🏻