✍️  Muhammad Saad Jaunpuri 

Who is there to listen to the voice of my heart?
Who is there to answer the questions arising in my mind?
Who is there to explain to me that destinies change with the gaze of a Momin (believer)?
Who is there to remove my mental confusion?
Who is there to guide me educationally?

To whom shall I take my sad heart? To whom shall I take my mental confusions?
Who will help me?
Who will tell me that despair is disbelief in Islam?

For the past few days, mental distress has been increasing.
There is a crowd of questions in my mind,
What should I do? Where should I go? What should I read? What should I write? What should I listen to?
These questions are looming over my mind and heart.
So much so that due to the words and complaints of some people, I am now even thinking about what to eat? What to drink?

Sometimes I feel like spending all my energy, all my time, and all my strength in acquiring the things that I missed in the past.
Sometimes I feel like reading all the books from Arabic Awwal to Aaliya Ula again, so that everything is memorized and what has been missed is recovered.
Sometimes I feel like dedicating myself to the Tafsir (interpretation) of the Quran, and not paying attention to other things.
Sometimes I feel like spending time on literature,
Sometimes my heart says to make jurisprudence (Fiqh) a routine of life, because I have to go among the public.
Sometimes my heart says that English is also a requirement of the time.
Sometimes my heart says that essay writing is also necessary.
Sometimes my heart says that in order to bring the public to the right path, it is necessary to learn oratory for their reformation.
Sometimes my heart says that nothing is possible without non-curricular study.

This conflict is eating away at the heart and mind from within.
Time is also passing at its own pace.
But no decision is being made.

Amidst all these questions and anxieties, a truth repeatedly shakes my heart,
If I remain scattered, no path will lead me to the destination.
Then a voice rises from within me,
A moment of action is better than years of inaction thinking.

Certainly, the complete map never comes to hand all at once.
Paths open up by taking steps.
Therefore, it is necessary to take the first step.
Whether it is the Tafsir of the Quran,
Or the study of literature,
Or the foundation of jurisprudence.

Allah will ask about the ability He has given, and there will also be a reward for it.

Those who sat down tired could not reach the destination
Those who kept walking, came and lassoed the stars.